Depression

What I've learnt today: Never, ever underestimate people. And by people that means yourself too!

The last week and a half I have been incredibly slack and putting off doing much crafting because I don't feel well, or I'm tired, or I can't be bothered getting things out just to put them away again a few hours later (I'm not lucky enough to have my own dedicated craft space :( Sad I know...)

Well today I made progress with myself. I stopped underestimating my own powers of weasling out of doing things and I wrote a very specific to do list. I promised myself that if I got at least 5 things (about half the list of not very big jobs) done then I could read or lounge for a bit of my day. (I work split shift)

So after some procrastinating I got stuck into my list and the funny thing is I got my 5 done and then I kept going because I was on a roll.

And one of the things on my list was to get help and call Headspace. They are a service for people aged between 12 to 25 that can give you access to mental health information, counselling, sexual health advice and specialised GP, as well as drugs and alcohol counselling and lots of other things.

I've made an appointment with them because I have a mental health barrier which stops me from having positive mental health. I reached out because I have a very bad habit of bottling problems up and "dealing" with them "later"... So not healthy.

I have mood swings, trouble getting to sleep, then once I am asleep, actually STAYING asleep. When I wake up I'm always tired, I'm easily irrated and I loose interest in things easily like sex... Which makes things worse when my partner and I argue about the lack of because then I feel worse about myself and the fact the I've lost interest and my guilt over it is crippling.

This is just the tip of the daily iceberg of issues... But I am seeking help. My appointment is in two weeks. In the mean time I will motorvaye myself to at least blog more if not actual get a tuoriak going.

Wish my luck blogospehere!
Also if there are others of you out there that feel like this or worse please comment below and let me know how your going and we can support each other.

I will finish this post with my favourite Yoda quote (of which I'm always reminding myself)

"Great power in you, there is."